Belated Resolutions ect.

Aloha readers! I have all kinds of interesting and wonderful news. Some not so awesome news as well.... Anyways......

So last week I had my head in the books. Forgive me but it is only the start of term where I am from and I am trying to adjust to how each professor grades and their expectations and such. Followed by a weekend full of work, I did not have time for much else. However there have been a few things that have been a good day dream or mental escape at the end of my long days :)

NUMERO UNO:

For a while now my boyfriend Casey and I have been planning bits and pieces of our future trip to Europe. Summer 2012 we are going to travel through Europe for a month with some of our closest friends. I come home some nights and just read the reviews on come of the backpacks we may purchase. I look at other backpacker's itineraries to see another persons take on a month away. I am sooooo excited. It is going to take dedication in all parts of my life to prepare. Like a month of trekking the European countryside is physically taxing if you are not in shape. Thus one thing I will be spending my money on is a gym membership. Casey and I are really dedicated to this for our health but Europe will be the bonus :)

Another thing is being as economical and responsible with money as possible. We have set ourselves a budget and are looking at ways to save and cut back in all aspects of our life so that Europe will become a reality.

Lastly I think being more involved and appreciative of my friends and family that share in my goal. Casey and I are so excited for one another and our friends that this is what we have in store. It is the light at the end of a tunnel of an already stressful life as a college student. Money is tight. Homework is not something that you can make up for 10 points off LOL. Anyway.... yes I am so excited and thoroughly smitten with the idea that myself and my closest loves are all sharing in a month or so in Europe.

TWO-FER FOR YA

I got a free, brand new tire tonight. Long story short I had a blow out last night. I am safe and the damage to my wallet was not fatal (kind of). It still stands though that I had a blow out and because of a wonderful police officer spot light, everyone driving within a mile of my vehicle saw the MESS that is the back seat and trunk. I am very lucky and blessed though. He stayed with me, and to my pleasant surprise my wonderful boyfriend came to sit with me while we wait for the wrecker. Another great friend saw me and offered a ride and some company. After all of this, Casey's uncle Jon came and helped the best he could too. It made me realize how lucky I am.

Tonight when my best bud Brandon and I, with help of Jon, changed my tire he told me to come to his house and air it up for free. His dad had heard about my mishap and offered me a brand new tire. It was the right size and everything so I am stoked.

All of this made me swear to take better care of myself and my car. Almost like belated resolutions for this new year along with saving money as best I can.

I will say this for myself though, I had the funds needed when my emergency hit last night. And my phone was charged. I ran some errands to the Wal-Mart and only bought necessities. Not too hard though because I hate Wal-Mart more and more every day LOL. I am doing good so far and plan on doing my best to stick to all of my newly set goals.

Ciao Bella'

Balance

I am just finishing up another week of class, work, sleep and repeat. Its the same thing as last term, only adding a few more miles on Tuesdays and Thursdays. It does however bring into question balance and what it means to people. If you would have asked me last term, my first term as a freshman in college, heck three weeks ago how balanced my life was I would have laughed in your face. Something has happened to me though in the first couple weeks that has helped to put it all into a better focus. I have always been a huge fan of planners so I think mine has helped. There is something that comes to mind that Casey said to me over Christmas break; he told me having even one class at main campus makes it feel like hard core make or break you college. I laughed it off and didn't know what in the world he was talking about. Make or break.... HA.

Still not there, but there is definitely something about that campus, or maybe the freakishly ridiculous drive home at 5. I don't know what it is, but this term is going great.

A ton of this may be attributed to my move home, away from a stressful and toxic environment. Or work is more just like a comfortable place of employment than a hell hole I get paid to visit. Who knows.

Casey is home to entertain me now though, so this blog is cut off for now. However let me a add a little bit of joy to your night/day with this.....

(upper right lmao)

My Inspirations...

So I maybe stole this idea from my pal Chelsea, but I think it is a great idea. Mine is a little different from hers though. :)

First and foremost my biggest inspiration is my family. Mucho "cliche", I know, but every family has skeletons and drama and good times and bad times. It takes so many different qualities from strength, faith, a good sense of right and wrong, just to make it through the tough times families face from time to time. When I am hitting a wall with something that has bothered me for days I just think about how my grandmother, parents, other fam all get through things that are so much tougher and I know I can make it. Right is a picture of my Grandma Diane and my Aunt Megan. They are truly amazing.

Another person that inspires me is my wonderfully awesome Casey. My boyfriend of almost 3 years. He is a huge part of my support system and pushes me to give all I've got per say. Casey also makes me laugh, on occasion until I have peed myself. Hugely embarrassing if you ask me and he did so right after we started dating. He stuck around though, laughed it off, almost sounded like he felt as though he accomplished something to make someone laugh that hard LOL. Whoa.... side tracked. Sorry. My very favorite thing is that he includes me, my opinions, and my goals in his. We both understand that college comes first, even before one another. And we are totally ok with that. He and I also see college as a stepping stone in our life together as a couple and as part of our families. ( My family loves him, so he is a keeper)

I like everyone else at one point thought I was in love and ready for a life on my own, a few years later maybe add a family.... EWWWWW

But Casey has helped me grow, he helped me see all of the great things there are to see, do and accomplish with out worrying about someone thinking you are hot shit. He is right beside me in every step I take these days and I really love having someone to share the experience with

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My friends are the people that are there for me in worst and help me through tough times, share in the best times. All of the stuff we can expect from only great friends. I am lucky enough to have some very best friends that are with us whenever the important stuff goes down. They are our witnesses, back up, audience, and sometimes our medicine. Sadly for the lack of photos on this computer, my post will not do them justice....

Well I don't think it will do my family justice either lol. Dang

Other things inspire me. I love color, and fashion, and all things that are girlie. I love putting things together. Seeing something come together or even better a final result of something I took the time to put together, build up, design is such an inspiration for me to push myself more and become more creative.

History, is another huge one for me. Not in the sense that I am cautious not to repeat it or any other silly nonsense like that, but in the way that there is always someone or something to look back to for an idea, or inspiration when we face something new, or maybe just something a little bigger than just ourselves. I love learning about things from our past. It sounds sooo nerdy, and maybe a little old0-lady-ish but I am ok with that. LOL

Make up in a small way is an inspiration. I love doing other people's make up. It lets me be creative. I can go wild, or make someone look like the classiest version of themselves. It is a blast. If I had the money and the time outside of school to invest in it I would truly love to go to school for Make Up Artistry and Design (idk if thats what its really called LOL). I do Chelsea's makeup a lot. Seeing what I can do on someone else is like seeing it on a canvas, or just a face that isn't mine LOL. Either way, hobby or not, it is so fun to me and something that pushes me to learn new things and succeed in all facets of my life. As lame as that may sound, it is all gravy with me.

There are so many things that I see or hear these days that make me stop and think. I would not call all of them inspirations, but maybe reminders that I have so much growing to do, so much more to see and do. Looking at something like facebook posts from family back home I see what I miss and it reminds me cherish any time with your loved ones that you get. School, as tough as it gets, reminds me that its a stepping stone on the way to a decent home and a family of my own after a few years of travel with Casey and our friends.

On a lighter note I was reminded that I am truly blessed that I was raised with enough sense not to push my mother around and hit her in the middle of Dicks Sporting Goods. Yes, you read correctly, some kid who was twice my size was running after his mother yelling "MOM MOM COME HERE G-D IT!!!!!" and then he pushed and hit her as she was walking out the door. I about lost it on him. But what can I do, for I am a cashier who is put on this earth to serve the customer to the best of my ability.....

My mamaw is at least a foot shorter and all of her children and the majority of her grandchildren. If one of us EVER tried to pull that crap on her we would be laid out on the floor in 7 seconds. It was horrible. I was sooo angry for her.

I am home now though, relaxing. Casey, Dusty and I played and 23 song set list on Rock Band 2. It took FOREVER and my hand hurts, but we conquered. I even played a majority of the songs on Hard level, which I have never been able to do. It was awesome. I am soooo pooped though so I think its bed time.

Ta Ta for now.

ATTEMPT TWO AT MY FRIDAY BLOG.... grrrr

I was currently trying to upload a picture of myself and my boyfriend Casey in accordance to the blog topic I chose to elaborate on this evening. I was borrowing a page out of a friends book and listing the people, places, and things that inspire me every day. I may try again sometime soon, but tonight is going to be just another blab fest because I get extremely irritated with things like pictures not wanting to upload.

Casey's brother Dusty came into town to spend the weekend with us. We are having a blast. I curled his hair so now he looks like a little Jewish boy. It is HILARIOUS. I spent last night hanging out with my pal Chels and we made a video of a makeup tutorial/us doing what we do every time we hang at her place lol. I had two early classes today and then did lunch with Brandon and James. Decent day, tired as hell. Will post pics more than likely just to facebook tomorrow. May post one of Dusty's hair on here though. Awesome stuff lmao.

Well ta ta for now. More tomorrow.

School Starts Again Tomorrow....

So tomorrow I start back for Spring term at Pellissippi. Woo Hoo lol

Seriously though it is the first time I will have classes at Hardin Valley. I went to my course webpages and such and I feel like I am waaaay in over my head with this English Comp class I am taking. But it is required so...

I am also excited. I have officially changed my major and have a semester of relatively interesting, and/or easy classes. Except, like I said, Eng 1020. I am willing to bust ass though. Hell I even made flash cards for Bio 2 for the weekly vocabularies my professor assigns. He is one of those professors that pushes you all term but in the end all your extra work pays off.

I feel like this term is my chance to branch out in small ways. Especially in regards to attending some classes at main campus. All of Casey's are up there. He has got to be the most driven person I know. It gives me something to compare too and look up to in a way. Wrong form of 'too' there. LOL, do not feel like correcting it lol.

I am super tired though, and will gladly tell all about my first day back and my first day at Hardin :)

But for the time being, Ta Ta.

I will also post updated pics and info since I haven't posted in forever. If nothing comes of this thing soon I may delete it, who knows?

Change Blows

Ever feel like nostalgia is useless, because the people that were there making it all happen with you aren't anymore, or have changed?? It's not fair. We grow up and make so many great and funny memories and think when you are older you will sit back with that person and just smile and laugh. Those are also the memories you want to share with your kids one day. People say its times like those, good or bad, that teach us. Is that supposed to comfort us when we hit the wall that is reality? When you realize it was almost like a dream, and those people, those days are over. How is this part of growing up? I think its just a cruel version of reality that only some people have to deal with. Or maybe karma because at one time or another I along with a million and one other people were less than sickly sweet to some random person on the side of the road. I dont know anymore.
What really bites is that this applies to everyone some way, some how. This can fit your family, your friends, or even significant others. There is no way around this either, because you arent the only one who changed. The other half of that memory has too so if they do not miss it like you do, or feel like you arent worth it anymore then you are surely screwed and left to look like a sad little person stuck in the once was.

Usually I do NOT get this deep into something or go this far down into whiny mode, but it is pure reality, and as much as I hate it, I am dealing with it. No tissues no tears, maybe a little bitterness towards some select family or friends. But I have changed too I guess so maybe they blame me too? Who knows. Just know that I too am pissed at change sometimes. So if you are, then we are pissy together lol.

Summer is almost over :(

With summer's end quickly approaching there is a lot on my mind. Like my need to finish picking classes and stop being such a damn procrastinator. I also feel like a failure for not going home to Indiana to see my family the entire summer. It's mildly depressing.
I cannot wait to wear sweaters. I hate the cold, but I love the fall. Football season, back yard ball, and bonfires are all in my future and I cannot wait.
In all seriousness though, I have had the weirdest moods. Not bad moods but moods where I feel like if you gave me something creative or type A to do I would bring you back something epic. That feeling where you are thinking of one specific song all day but you don't know what it is because you have 9000 others swimming around in there right along with it LOL.
I miss hanging with my friends. We all went to Chris and Amanda's place last night, good times and pictures. You know, the usual. Billy and Rowan came with us too so it was a lot of fun.
We have to take Dusty home Tuesday though. That kind of blows.
Just another reminder that school is almost here. I love getting organized for school too, so my pent up energy will soon be put to good use.
Anyways work is wearing me out mucho bad so I am Audi 3000.
Peace!