Testing out new mobile blogging app :)

I am currently down for the count with strep throat. The doctor wants me to take off until Monday. This weekend is pretty much the only time to get hours and monies....
I even offered to come in after 24 hours of meds but my bosses don't really like that. idea. I don't blame them, I don't want to get everyone else sick but I need monies :( I will blog later this week and tell you all the exciting new things going on, I just don't feel up to it.
Stas

Finally....

I got off my lazy butt and posted for the first time in 405 years LOL.

So nothing incredibly exciting is going on around here lately. I did get a membership to the gym, and plan on going first thing in the morning. I am getting a really sore throat though. :/ I am bound and determined to go though. I will go... I mean currently I am not feverish, nor do I feel nauseous (jinxies).

Oh and I have made all A's on any assignments, tests ect. of late. My biology test has not been returned though, and I am worried about it.

It was recently brought to my attention that there is a certain type of person in the world that lives only to water down the happiness of others and justify their own actions. Right or wrong. Now this seems like something even a child could grasp, but no one wants to think of a friend or loved one that way. My friends and boyfriend are always telling me to let things roll off my back, and for the most part I am doing great with that. However the previously mentioned type of person has started to pop up in my life. And its damn annoying. What can you do though? Yes let it roll off your back, but do not back down. Letting someone get to you, be it getting pissed or getting your feelings hurt or even slightly annoyed is only normal. Everyone is like that is letting them win. It is only normal. It pisses me off that I am the target of someones bad day, when I have no connection with any of those people.

In short I have learned that for me personally, I have to take my Aunt Michelle's advice and divorce myself from the bad situation or ridiculous people. My friends and family know how blunt I am, so let me put it this way.

I prefer to think that the people (no one specific, just people ex: bitchy customers, crabby classmates I don't even know who are jerks to me) are dead to the world. I do not wish death on someone, nor do I look at them as dead gruesome bodies or anything. It is just as though that type of person has never existed.

On a lighter note I got to go shopping with my friends Breanna and Brittney. They are my best friend Brandon's little sisters. I have known them for years, and yesterday was the first time we went out for a girls night. We had a good time and I got a few cute new things. I am sooo pumped about working out tomorrow!!!!

I must go to sleep. I need my energy for tomorrow because my Casey is my work out partner and a great motivator.

Lazy Mondays...

There is seriously something in the air that is causing me to not be able to get crap off my mind. However there is good news... In sticking with my belated resolutions I cleaned out my car HARDCORE today. Like pulling the bench almost out of the car to get the stuff under the seat. Vacuum and all. Boom.....

Oh and there is a new addition to my belated resolution. Well I never looked back on my last post in regards to resolutions and all.... Anyways... I would really love to learn how to play a guitar. Preferably electric, but acoustic would be nice too. I hate not being talented at anything. So I will get a new hobby that will turn into mad skills. Haha. Just kidding. But seriously, I will learn how to play guitar this year.

My lazy Monday kind of helped me come to this conclusion among others :)

Casey and I ended up taking up a 3 hour nap today so my sleep schedule is a little off tonight. We are currently watching Family Guy, and I am wondering why every season there is a new episode about Stewie having a crush on some random baby girl. While in more recent seasons and older ones alike, he behaves as though he is gay. AND... Brian asked him if he was gay he said probably. Now he is in love with Brian Adams. This is all so confusing.
However I am sticking to another one of my resolutions and working out in the morning before class so I am getting off here.

Nightie Night readers or bored people who have nothing else to do online LOL

Right NOW.....

Listening to: Have Faith in Me ADTR.

What am I doing you ask:

Well I am chatting with some friends on Facebook and surfing the web as always. I have nothing better to do honestly. I am off tomorrow so I think I will try and work out a little bit. I don't know.

I do know I had another online assignment in History and feel like it is another A coming my way :)

I had no idea what to blog about tonight but I will say this....

I am 20 years old, in college, and work a part time job. I feel stressed and/or tired a majority of the time which is not indicative of the previous self description stated. What the hell is wrong with me?!

I woke up today and have been dizzy alllllllll day long. I ate, did everything as normal. Had just enough caffeine to get me through the day without a headache and for some reason still cannot shake it. What in the H?

Also I am currently wondering where my crazy sense of adventure went the past couple of years?! I should have a few more tattoos, another peircing, and blue and purple streaks in my hair right now and I have none of those!!! Just kidding, kind of, not really. I have wanted my hair to be dark brown with blue and purple streaks for like 6 years. As far as peircings I wanted to pierce my eyebrow for a while and have not done so because I was told that was the worst for scarring. Tattoo-wise I only have the treble clef, but still wanna put that pirate ship on my side and a baby chick on my shoulder next to my treble clef. Oh and an anchor on my foot.

All in all I am extremely bored, and other than Europe stuff, these are among the things I think about a lot.

I was also thinking about how I miss my Grandma Diane A LOT. Casey and I were talking about who made awesome eggs for some reason and I told him my grandma did. When I was younger my Grandpa made the only pancakes in the world in my opinion. I swore they were the biggest too!!! And my grandmother was the only person that could make me eggs. Or at least that is how I remember it. I like eggs okay, but for some reason I remember standing in the dining room at the big house (family house in Indy) and my 6 year old logic told me it was ok that Mamaw cooked because she was making eggs. She made eggs and Papaw made the pancakes. I honestly imagine I was a big pain in the butt knowing how I was as a child. But I still to this day remembering thinking I will only eat them if mamaw makes them the way papaw tells her to and that is why its ok to eat breakfast when mamaw cooks.

I ramble lol. You have to understand though that Papaw cooked. That is just how it went. BEST COOK EVER. My family back home knows that :)

(shout out.... lets see who is actually reading this thing LOL)

Oh and Casey is adorable. He is a big hairy mess of a man, but for some reason is still horribly adorable to me and I love him for that.

I AM hungry now though, because I spent a good five minutes typing this and rambling to Casey some more about food that my grandparents made and I am kind of irritated at myself, because unless I get up and cook it, there is no other way to get my aunt megans pot pie. Well mamaws because she told Megan how to make it LOL.

Rambles Schmambles. Sorry all...

Goodnight.

Now listening to: Chemical Kids and Mechanical Brides --Pierce the Veil

(trying to see if I like them for a show in April) ((they are okay))

Saturday.... wooot

I checked my school info online tonight and my history proffessor posted the grades for our first major non-test assignment. I made an A. I am so excited. Being that I am a history major and all haha.
A friend I work with is leaving for Spain. She is taking her classes there this semester. Does it not sound like an awesome and exciting adventure? All for school. Think of if I could spend one of my last semesters in Europe, maybe just Italy and Germany to take in some history in regards to the World War II era. I want to teach history and focus mainly on that time period. So I thinking seeing all sides and how it affected the cultures and every day events of the masses would help to tell someone about it.

Nothing extremely exciting has happened today though. I cooked dinner tonight. Casey helped a little bit, and although it didn't taste horrible, it was not our best work ever. Usually when we team up and make dinner we rock that shit.

Oh wells. I am proud of myself though. I have this project in Bio that makes me track a weeks worth of my eating habits. Which suck by the way. So it is just another sign it would be a great time to edit those habits and work out a little more. I haven't snacked all day like usual. I even cut myself down to one portion of dinner. It filled me up. I had the equivelent of two bottles of water and I only had part of one soda. I plan on finishing it though lol. Cherry Dr. Pepper goodness. :)

Casey and Dusty and I are just hanging out and goofing off until we get to tired to see. I listen to my music and mess around on here while they play COD. Good times good times. Tomorrow little man goes home. I love spending time with him, but it makes me miss my little brother so super much.

Anyways I will leave it at that. Anyone that takes the time to read this or even find it for that matter and will probably have my facebook info so there is no need to elaborate more than I already have above when there is such a thing as instant messaging lol.

Byeeeeee (hahaha Hangover reference)

What's on My Mind

Recently a good friend posted on my facebook about how she has been thinking of the past couple years. All the changes we have made, all of the places people have gone. It has caused me to stop and reflect on the past couple of years myself. I have wonderful and fond memories of the past years, along with some less than awesome things I have gone through, dealt with, or done myself. My head has been so chocked full of stuff like that the past couple of days, even driving has become an issue.

It made me want to post, vent in a way. Because honestly those changes are what put me where I am. I look at my family and feel pride because I turned out to be an okay person I guess lol. I feel loss because I was extremely close to my grandfather and in April he will have been gone 9 years. I miss my parents a ton because they moved home while I am still here in TN. My brother is who I miss more than anyone. He is my life, other than school and Casey of course. Wow, honestly there is no order of priorities there haha, that made me seem like a craptastic sister but Bean is my world.

High school and the first year or two of community college for me are also on the list of things I have been looking back on. I had some friends I pray I do not run into at Wal-Mart these days. I was not into drugs or alcohol, but some of the people I hung out with were so I had to ditch that crowd. I let some people live in my apartment that stole, and lied. I lost touch with some of my high school friends that I loved like family.

I was also part of a church in the town I live in that is not of the same faith I was raised to believe in. None the less I broadened my horizons and open-minded-ness as far as my religious views. I gained some wonderful friends, some not so wonderful. I strengthened the strongest relationship I have other than Casey. I grew in the friendships I did have. But like any other institution founded upon lies and high school drama, religious or otherwise, I did not stay for too long. After a year or two I was done with drama and lies coming from a place I was supposed to see as a sanctuary.

The summer between senior year and freshman year of college my best friend got an apartment and I was soon after her neighbor. My best friend Bethany has since blessed me with a beautiful niece Riley Elizabeth who was born two days before my 19th birthday.

That same year Casey and I were doing our own thing and taking a break. During that time I relied heavily on the people I now consider to be my closest friends. This has also leaves a heavy note on my mind because I think of the people I hung out with and the crazy things I got into back in those days. Like I said before no drugs or anything but I met all kinds of people, saw all kinds of things and became a little more independent.

Soon after Casey and I pulled our heads out of our butts and as mentioned in previous posts things are wonderful and I am in love.

The past is still weighing heavily on my mind these days. I have been thinking a lot about things I wish I could change. About things that make me feel nothing shy of joy and happiness. Most of all though I think about where I can go from here with all the "results" from the past that I have been thinking about.

So many people are like "the past is the past" and yadda yadda (sp?) but it is part of what makes us who we are. I have flaws just like everyone else, physical, mental, however you call it. I just cannot seem to get these things off my mind and hope that in the coming days my brain will calm its jets so I can sleep. In the mean time I am trying to, in little ways, to grow and learn from all of the little bits floating around.

Ta Ta ladies and gents.