Ever feel like nostalgia is useless, because the people that were there making it all happen with you aren't anymore, or have changed?? It's not fair. We grow up and make so many great and funny memories and think when you are older you will sit back with that person and just smile and laugh. Those are also the memories you want to share with your kids one day. People say its times like those, good or bad, that teach us. Is that supposed to comfort us when we hit the wall that is reality? When you realize it was almost like a dream, and those people, those days are over. How is this part of growing up? I think its just a cruel version of reality that only some people have to deal with. Or maybe karma because at one time or another I along with a million and one other people were less than sickly sweet to some random person on the side of the road. I dont know anymore.
What really bites is that this applies to everyone some way, some how. This can fit your family, your friends, or even significant others. There is no way around this either, because you arent the only one who changed. The other half of that memory has too so if they do not miss it like you do, or feel like you arent worth it anymore then you are surely screwed and left to look like a sad little person stuck in the once was.
Usually I do NOT get this deep into something or go this far down into whiny mode, but it is pure reality, and as much as I hate it, I am dealing with it. No tissues no tears, maybe a little bitterness towards some select family or friends. But I have changed too I guess so maybe they blame me too? Who knows. Just know that I too am pissed at change sometimes. So if you are, then we are pissy together lol.
