DAY EIGHT
I mentioned previous I was sick, so in keeping with that, yes I have sadly maintained whatever I had going on. It is going away though. Which is always good. It left me with time to mope around the house in my IU hoodie and a quilt I stole from my dad forever ago. I just want to say I caught up on "Secret Diary of a Call Girl" and "The United States of Tara" both. AWESOME :)
However because it was my birthday on Monday and I have yet to do anything huge (other than some pretty awesome family stuff) I was determined to get out. So I thought to myself who what and when. This turned wheels in my head.
We have all been there. Called a friend we thought we were super close to, and for the thirtieth time in a row they have a hurtfully lame excuse to avoid you. This defined my day eight.
Being over the age of 15 I have grown fond of being a home body with benefits. **Its kind of like friends with benefits without the sexual favors or the fear of commitment LOL. Both the benefits of staying home for a calm and relaxing day and hanging with friends are present, without the need to go do something crazy. But NO ONE was free. Friends I have counted on for years bailed for video games for the twentieth time in a row. Real friends right? I am not deluded enough to think that someone should drop everything, but come on!!!
However I did stop to reevaluate who and what was most important. Here comes my list of theories:
1. Re-evaluating your friends and family is not mean, its constructive and theraputic.
2. Trying to keep in touch with your long distance friends is a nice thought, but if you're lucky you only do so with one person honestly.
3. Try as I might, I still cannot understand situations I have already lived through so its time to let them go (which trying to do so may be even harder)
4. Some people do view you as a weekend friend. Not literally only the weekend but its like a "sunday christian" like only when you are convenient or the last resort is it okay to consider hanging. We all have that "friend" that pulls that shit
5. Even watching someone on TV talk on about parallel universes does not validate how STUPID this sounds LOL
DAY NINE
My day today has been kind of blah. Casey brought me breakfast in bed. He is super sweet. Work though has honestly overtaken my day. I am exhausted almost every time I leave work LOL. Who isn't.
Work though made me again readjust some thoughts.
While I was up front, someone from my old High School got in my line. An old professor that I really looked up to. Thinking back now though I really do not understand why I sought to prove something to this guy. Now I think it was like subconscious spite or something. He would go out of his way to call out my mistakes and talk down to me. But he was successful in a career field I wished to follow in college, so I was like 'this guy is pretty cool'.
I tried to make conversation and say hello only for him to lecture me on whats wrong with this and that. I can say that said professor is nice enough but can make you feel ignorant by simply talking to you. I no longer will allow someone to have power over me like that anymore. Games have changed, I am not in high school anymore, nor am I a push over.
Well enough ranting for now. Lets put a happy picture to make me smile about my new found bitchy independent thinking :)
*** OOOH by the way, tomorrow is my birthday party that my friend Chelsea is throwing for me. I am sooo stoked. All of my friends are coming and I can't wait!!!!
Jeremy from ADTR!!! cutest man ever, other than Case of course :P
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