NEW STUFF FROM SEPHORA :)

I have no idea what "DAY" I am currently on because I have lost track, but I did spend the afternoon with Rowan and Billy and Chelsea at our local mall and hit up the Sephora where I live and got some goodies :)
I shall share. Thus far I have only used two of the products so reviews will be posted later along with the in depth detes of what I think of what I have used
1: Tarte's Bronze to Go in Park Avenue Princess (Matte)
I used a little to contour my face to try it out. LOVE it!! I normally go for a more neutral tone or cool tone when I choose a bronzer but could not pass up the deal. I got it in the sample size thus "to go" but it is slightly more pink toned. I looks really lovely on. I am going to try it a few more days before I review it though so bare with me. Oh it was $15 for any one who wanted to know.

2: Make Up Forever's High Definition Powder (again sample size)

I tried this tonight as well. I am sooo undeniably one of those people that need to play with the new stuff they got as soon as they get home LOL.
Anyways it was also only $15 because it too was the smaller version but you need so little to do your entire face that I could not pass it up :)

3: Philosophy's Happy Birthday Beautiful Shampoo, Shower Gel and Bubble Bath
With my Sephora Beauty Insider card I got this as my birthday gift from the store. It smells just like cake batter, which is soo yummy. I don;t know if its for me though, I do like the scent but sweet smells like this are over bearing to me and give me a migraine sadly :( I may give this to a friend that enjoys it as well.
While there I also picked up a few samples of some foundations I wanted to try.
1: Nars Sheer Glow in Deauville
I have used this foundation in the past, but it too was a sample. It is normally $42 a bottle, so during the summer while my color changes so often I was not about to drop that much on foundation. Plus I needed to matched so sample time :) The lady there matched me to Deauville as I mentioned. It is AMAZING, again full review later
2: YSL Teint Resist #4
The associate at Sephora told me she wears this in the summer and suggested it for me. I put a little on tonight. I will post a full review after I have worn it for a few days. Sample sizes last me forever so I can stretch it and give it a few tries. I think the color is actually called Sand?  This one is normally $55
3: Laura Mercier Oil Free Tinted Moisturizer in Nude
I have heard so many rave reviews about this one. I can't wait to give it a try. I like a fuller coverage but I do not like the thick cakey feeling of foundation in the summer. I want to say this normally runs at $40, but I could be wrong.

Well that is all. I had a gift card I got for my birthday, so I do not like to blow money on frivolous things but will say that foundation should be where you spend your money. The better you take care of your skin the less you will need. So I don't mind to spend a little more on a good quality product. Anyways hope you enjoy, nothing too colorful but definitely stuff I needed :)
Have a wonderful night everyone.

Day 8 & 9: Viewing Things a Little Differently

Somewhere on this giant interweb there is a small handful of people that may read, laugh at, or even like bits and pieces of my blog. I do love sharing what is going on with me because its my link to my family out of state that I don't get to call all the time. I will say though, that when my own blogs sometimes seems less than interesting, its time for a change. This thought came about this afternoon when reflecting on the last couple of days and how slowly my opinions have changed. Thus the following is not only a recap, but my reasoning behind how I further choose to conduct this blog to later become an open online scrapbook to remind myself of this year :)


DAY EIGHT
I mentioned previous I was sick, so in keeping with that, yes I have sadly maintained whatever I had going on. It is going away though. Which is always good. It left me with time to mope around the house in my IU hoodie and a quilt I stole from my dad forever ago. I just want to say I caught up on "Secret Diary of a Call Girl" and "The United States of Tara" both. AWESOME :) 
However because it was my birthday on Monday and I have yet to do anything huge (other than some pretty awesome family stuff) I was determined to get out. So I thought to myself who what and when. This turned wheels in my head. 
We have all been there. Called a friend we thought we were super close to, and for the thirtieth time in a row they have a hurtfully lame excuse to avoid you. This defined my day eight. 
Being over the age of 15 I have grown fond of being a home body with benefits. **Its kind of like friends with benefits without the sexual favors or the fear of commitment LOL. Both the benefits of staying home for a calm and relaxing day and hanging with friends are present, without the need to go do something crazy. But NO ONE was free. Friends I have counted on for years bailed for video games for the twentieth time in a row. Real friends right? I am not deluded enough to think that someone should drop everything, but come on!!! 
However I did stop to reevaluate who and what was most important. Here comes my list of theories:
1. Re-evaluating your friends and family is not mean, its constructive and theraputic. 
2. Trying to keep in touch with your long distance friends is a nice thought, but if you're lucky you only do so with one person honestly. 
3. Try as I might, I still cannot understand situations I have already lived through so its time to let them go (which trying to do so may be even harder)
4. Some people do view you as a weekend friend. Not literally only the weekend but its like a "sunday christian" like only when you are convenient or the last resort is it okay to consider hanging. We all have that "friend" that pulls that shit 
5. Even watching someone on TV talk on about parallel universes does not validate how STUPID this sounds LOL


DAY NINE
My day today has been kind of blah. Casey brought me breakfast in bed. He is super sweet. Work though has honestly overtaken my day. I am exhausted almost every time I leave work LOL. Who isn't.
Work though made me again readjust some thoughts. 
While I was up front, someone from my old High School got in my line. An old professor that I really looked up to. Thinking back now though I really do not understand why I sought to prove something to this guy. Now I think it was like subconscious spite or something. He would go out of his way to call out my mistakes and talk down to me. But he was successful in a career field I wished to follow in college, so I was like 'this guy is pretty cool'. 
I tried to make conversation and say hello only for him to lecture me on whats wrong with this and that. I can say that said professor is nice enough but can make you feel ignorant by simply talking to you. I no longer will allow someone to have power over me like that anymore. Games have changed, I am not in high school anymore, nor am I a push over. 


Well enough ranting for now. Lets put a happy picture to make me smile about my new found bitchy independent thinking :)


*** OOOH by the way, tomorrow is my birthday party that my friend Chelsea is throwing for me. I am sooo stoked. All of my friends are coming and I can't wait!!!! 


Jeremy from ADTR!!! cutest man ever, other than Case of course :P

Day 6 & 7: Riley's Birthday and My Own

Again I fell behind, I apologize. I have been slightly ill sadly. I feel like it has some how been slightly influenced by the craptacular weather in my area. Thus no posts until its too late lol
Day Six:
Sunday was my nieces birthday, as mentioned previous. Sadly there are not many pictures, none of my own anyway. My batteries died. But I will say my niece loves her little shoes. She was super excited about everyone coming to see her. It was great to see my sister Beth. I did have to cut out early and go to work. Which went horribly wrong...
I started feeling like junk almost immediately after I got there. I went home early from work as well. It was horrible. :(
Over all though, my Sunday was a good day

Day Seven: I TURNED 21 :)
Although I did feel quite off, I celebrated a wonderously awesome day with Casey and his family. Casey took me to the mall and got me the cutest pair of Vans Shoes. I think they are called Vans Lo-Pros. They are SO AWESOME :)

Super Cute!!!!

I then got to go to PF Changs for lunch. It was great fun. Two of our good friends met us there. I did order an adult beverage and it was delicious. To keep San Fran classy so to speak the story will end there. 

Last night I met Chelsea and Casey out at the local Applebees for another adult beverage and had more fun. 

My birthday did lead me to a few conclusions or theories, whatever you want to call them...

1. Being sick on my birthday SUCKS

2. Drinking one drink will always be more than enough for me 

3. Adult drinks only mask how terrible you feel temporarily. 

and finally...

4. Drinking responsibly is honorable, however the next day when most get over it, you are stuck with that tiny knot in your belly from the one drink you have :(

Overall though it has been a great two days thanks to my wonderful friends and family and my amazing boyfriend. I am still not totally up to par though. I really cannot get this icky feeling to go away. Any suggestions??? Other than a "Hot-Toddie"

I am not a whisky person lol. 

Have a wonderful night all. Will post something more exciting tomorrow. 

Day 4 & 5: Blog Issues and Awesome Shopping

Day Four:

Umm.... needless to say there was an issue with the Blogger, so I did not get to post yesterday. I normally post in the later evening because I have time to relax and share all the stuff I actually did. However..... 

I did nothing exciting. I got to relax. I have spent a good while doing that between shifts at work lately and it has been GREAT. So much needed!! I spent the day with Casey as well. Good stuff. Currently he and I are looking into building a new desktop computer, so we spent some time browsing the web. Nothing yet, but its pretty cool to spend time learning about the stuff interesting to Casey. On to today though

Day Five: 

My thought for the day: How do some people who are obviously drunks and legit need some help from a clinic or something seem to function almost normally in public society. Like WHAT THE HELL. I worked this morning and I swear its like yesterday and today was national drunks in public day!!!! 

On to the AWESOME SHOPPING. My nieces birthday is tomorrow and the party is on Sunday. I had to get her a present, thus shopping. She is turning 2 and LOVES Minnie Mouse and playing video games with her dad. This winter I got her her own Minnie and she still plays with it. I went to the Disney Store, prepared to spend a ton. She is worth it, but anyone with a Disney fan in the fam knows that it can be pricey. I spent just over $20 and found such cute things.

Here is my haul of goodies for Miss Riley:

I LOVE this shirt. It is kind of hard to read because of the flash but it says "Love Minnie Mouse 4ever" My wonderful niece has the cutest little personality and "tude" some times so I thought that it was her :)

These are my favorite! I am a huge flip flop fan and could not resist, plus they had a great deal going. My camera does not do it a whole lot of justice, so I shall explain. The left pair are kind of simple, but the straps are pink glitter and oh so cute, the right pair however are striped and have a multi colored bow on the front. At the bottom is a awesome pair of heart shaped pink polka dotted sunglasses with Minnie on the side.

This is just the cute bag I am putting everything in. It is one of the recycled products reusable bags. I know as a college student, these and other bags are a major necessity (sp?) so I can only assume that it will help my best friend Beth, Riley's momma. It is super cute and keeps with the theme. 

Here is the finished product. Because the bag is huge, it was not that easy to tuft out the tissue paper and make it "professional" looking. Riley will like it though, that is all that matters. As you can tell it is Auntie approved. 

Well that is all for Riley's presents. I did get something for myself kind of as an early birthday present. It's an Indiana University Hoosiers hoodie. I don't normally follow the basketball team but I do love being from Indy LOL. I will post a pic tomorrow. But here is the birthday girl in question

Riley Elizabeth. Two years old Saturday :) She is my wonderful niece. The party should be an awesome time. I will keep everyone posted with pictures and hopefully a video to show how cute Riles is. 

Have a good night everyone :)

Stas

Day 2: Easy Days are SOOO Nice

I love relaxing and having no major responsibilities for the day. I posted yesterday that I went to gym with Case and totally killed it. However I would like to correct said previous statement and say I killed my hip LOL. 
Needless to say we did not go to the gym this morning but we did spend some time together. Made breakfast, watched Top Gear, the usual :) 
But I laid out this afternoon and got some color. Which brings me to my latest theory on insects:
Wasps target humans!!!
As I was enjoying about an hour of sun and relaxation a GIANT wasp just hovered over my stomach and was like dive bombing at me, just stopping shy of my stomach...... Dang Bugs!!!
I am getting excited for my birthday coming up soon and my wonderful friend Chelsea is throwing me a birthday party :) It is going to be a pool party and I am just sooo stoked. I am not however excited for all of my friends to see me in a swim suit, I have lost a little weight but its like a coming out for my tummy LOL.
I am stoked though. I will end this one quite abruptly though and stop for the night. I will leave with a pic from the biggest "adventure" of the day :)

Day 1: Chilling with Casey

So starts my summer. As it is the first "official" day of my summer I shall first explain the reason or goal behind the refreshing blog makeover I am about to embark on.

It was my goal in the beginning of this blog (what 200 years ago?) to post frequently, bring in readers and keep my friends and relatives posted on whats going on in my day to day.

Being a college student that is impossible. However it is the summer... and until the end of this month I am not back in school so I shall post for every day of the summer and hope that it starts a fun and relaxing habit and whatever else comes :)

DAY ONE:

After a very fun and eventful mothers day in the mountains on Sunday, I slept in until almost noon, and it was TERRIFIC. Casey and I then went to the gym and killed it. With it being day one and the whole sloughing it at the gym bit, there are not really any pictures from this afternoon. We did however enjoy a nice lunch together before I went into work. I closed with Kenz tonight, so work was pretty awesome. I will say I like my job.

Ending our very late evening Case and I are currently catching up on some TOP GEAR

This show is awesome, its on BBC. Hilarious.... and so awesome

This post technically will be finished on the start of DAY TWO but forgive me, we just now are relaxing. However there will be pics and awesome shit for the rest of the summer.

Changes...

I feel like since it has been forever and there are tons of new things going on with me lately I am going to switch it up and find new things to blog about to keep family and friends posted. XX

Stas

Testing out new mobile blogging app :)

I am currently down for the count with strep throat. The doctor wants me to take off until Monday. This weekend is pretty much the only time to get hours and monies....
I even offered to come in after 24 hours of meds but my bosses don't really like that. idea. I don't blame them, I don't want to get everyone else sick but I need monies :( I will blog later this week and tell you all the exciting new things going on, I just don't feel up to it.
Stas

Finally....

I got off my lazy butt and posted for the first time in 405 years LOL.

So nothing incredibly exciting is going on around here lately. I did get a membership to the gym, and plan on going first thing in the morning. I am getting a really sore throat though. :/ I am bound and determined to go though. I will go... I mean currently I am not feverish, nor do I feel nauseous (jinxies).

Oh and I have made all A's on any assignments, tests ect. of late. My biology test has not been returned though, and I am worried about it.

It was recently brought to my attention that there is a certain type of person in the world that lives only to water down the happiness of others and justify their own actions. Right or wrong. Now this seems like something even a child could grasp, but no one wants to think of a friend or loved one that way. My friends and boyfriend are always telling me to let things roll off my back, and for the most part I am doing great with that. However the previously mentioned type of person has started to pop up in my life. And its damn annoying. What can you do though? Yes let it roll off your back, but do not back down. Letting someone get to you, be it getting pissed or getting your feelings hurt or even slightly annoyed is only normal. Everyone is like that is letting them win. It is only normal. It pisses me off that I am the target of someones bad day, when I have no connection with any of those people.

In short I have learned that for me personally, I have to take my Aunt Michelle's advice and divorce myself from the bad situation or ridiculous people. My friends and family know how blunt I am, so let me put it this way.

I prefer to think that the people (no one specific, just people ex: bitchy customers, crabby classmates I don't even know who are jerks to me) are dead to the world. I do not wish death on someone, nor do I look at them as dead gruesome bodies or anything. It is just as though that type of person has never existed.

On a lighter note I got to go shopping with my friends Breanna and Brittney. They are my best friend Brandon's little sisters. I have known them for years, and yesterday was the first time we went out for a girls night. We had a good time and I got a few cute new things. I am sooo pumped about working out tomorrow!!!!

I must go to sleep. I need my energy for tomorrow because my Casey is my work out partner and a great motivator.

Lazy Mondays...

There is seriously something in the air that is causing me to not be able to get crap off my mind. However there is good news... In sticking with my belated resolutions I cleaned out my car HARDCORE today. Like pulling the bench almost out of the car to get the stuff under the seat. Vacuum and all. Boom.....

Oh and there is a new addition to my belated resolution. Well I never looked back on my last post in regards to resolutions and all.... Anyways... I would really love to learn how to play a guitar. Preferably electric, but acoustic would be nice too. I hate not being talented at anything. So I will get a new hobby that will turn into mad skills. Haha. Just kidding. But seriously, I will learn how to play guitar this year.

My lazy Monday kind of helped me come to this conclusion among others :)

Casey and I ended up taking up a 3 hour nap today so my sleep schedule is a little off tonight. We are currently watching Family Guy, and I am wondering why every season there is a new episode about Stewie having a crush on some random baby girl. While in more recent seasons and older ones alike, he behaves as though he is gay. AND... Brian asked him if he was gay he said probably. Now he is in love with Brian Adams. This is all so confusing.
However I am sticking to another one of my resolutions and working out in the morning before class so I am getting off here.

Nightie Night readers or bored people who have nothing else to do online LOL

Right NOW.....

Listening to: Have Faith in Me ADTR.

What am I doing you ask:

Well I am chatting with some friends on Facebook and surfing the web as always. I have nothing better to do honestly. I am off tomorrow so I think I will try and work out a little bit. I don't know.

I do know I had another online assignment in History and feel like it is another A coming my way :)

I had no idea what to blog about tonight but I will say this....

I am 20 years old, in college, and work a part time job. I feel stressed and/or tired a majority of the time which is not indicative of the previous self description stated. What the hell is wrong with me?!

I woke up today and have been dizzy alllllllll day long. I ate, did everything as normal. Had just enough caffeine to get me through the day without a headache and for some reason still cannot shake it. What in the H?

Also I am currently wondering where my crazy sense of adventure went the past couple of years?! I should have a few more tattoos, another peircing, and blue and purple streaks in my hair right now and I have none of those!!! Just kidding, kind of, not really. I have wanted my hair to be dark brown with blue and purple streaks for like 6 years. As far as peircings I wanted to pierce my eyebrow for a while and have not done so because I was told that was the worst for scarring. Tattoo-wise I only have the treble clef, but still wanna put that pirate ship on my side and a baby chick on my shoulder next to my treble clef. Oh and an anchor on my foot.

All in all I am extremely bored, and other than Europe stuff, these are among the things I think about a lot.

I was also thinking about how I miss my Grandma Diane A LOT. Casey and I were talking about who made awesome eggs for some reason and I told him my grandma did. When I was younger my Grandpa made the only pancakes in the world in my opinion. I swore they were the biggest too!!! And my grandmother was the only person that could make me eggs. Or at least that is how I remember it. I like eggs okay, but for some reason I remember standing in the dining room at the big house (family house in Indy) and my 6 year old logic told me it was ok that Mamaw cooked because she was making eggs. She made eggs and Papaw made the pancakes. I honestly imagine I was a big pain in the butt knowing how I was as a child. But I still to this day remembering thinking I will only eat them if mamaw makes them the way papaw tells her to and that is why its ok to eat breakfast when mamaw cooks.

I ramble lol. You have to understand though that Papaw cooked. That is just how it went. BEST COOK EVER. My family back home knows that :)

(shout out.... lets see who is actually reading this thing LOL)

Oh and Casey is adorable. He is a big hairy mess of a man, but for some reason is still horribly adorable to me and I love him for that.

I AM hungry now though, because I spent a good five minutes typing this and rambling to Casey some more about food that my grandparents made and I am kind of irritated at myself, because unless I get up and cook it, there is no other way to get my aunt megans pot pie. Well mamaws because she told Megan how to make it LOL.

Rambles Schmambles. Sorry all...

Goodnight.

Now listening to: Chemical Kids and Mechanical Brides --Pierce the Veil

(trying to see if I like them for a show in April) ((they are okay))

Saturday.... wooot

I checked my school info online tonight and my history proffessor posted the grades for our first major non-test assignment. I made an A. I am so excited. Being that I am a history major and all haha.
A friend I work with is leaving for Spain. She is taking her classes there this semester. Does it not sound like an awesome and exciting adventure? All for school. Think of if I could spend one of my last semesters in Europe, maybe just Italy and Germany to take in some history in regards to the World War II era. I want to teach history and focus mainly on that time period. So I thinking seeing all sides and how it affected the cultures and every day events of the masses would help to tell someone about it.

Nothing extremely exciting has happened today though. I cooked dinner tonight. Casey helped a little bit, and although it didn't taste horrible, it was not our best work ever. Usually when we team up and make dinner we rock that shit.

Oh wells. I am proud of myself though. I have this project in Bio that makes me track a weeks worth of my eating habits. Which suck by the way. So it is just another sign it would be a great time to edit those habits and work out a little more. I haven't snacked all day like usual. I even cut myself down to one portion of dinner. It filled me up. I had the equivelent of two bottles of water and I only had part of one soda. I plan on finishing it though lol. Cherry Dr. Pepper goodness. :)

Casey and Dusty and I are just hanging out and goofing off until we get to tired to see. I listen to my music and mess around on here while they play COD. Good times good times. Tomorrow little man goes home. I love spending time with him, but it makes me miss my little brother so super much.

Anyways I will leave it at that. Anyone that takes the time to read this or even find it for that matter and will probably have my facebook info so there is no need to elaborate more than I already have above when there is such a thing as instant messaging lol.

Byeeeeee (hahaha Hangover reference)

What's on My Mind

Recently a good friend posted on my facebook about how she has been thinking of the past couple years. All the changes we have made, all of the places people have gone. It has caused me to stop and reflect on the past couple of years myself. I have wonderful and fond memories of the past years, along with some less than awesome things I have gone through, dealt with, or done myself. My head has been so chocked full of stuff like that the past couple of days, even driving has become an issue.

It made me want to post, vent in a way. Because honestly those changes are what put me where I am. I look at my family and feel pride because I turned out to be an okay person I guess lol. I feel loss because I was extremely close to my grandfather and in April he will have been gone 9 years. I miss my parents a ton because they moved home while I am still here in TN. My brother is who I miss more than anyone. He is my life, other than school and Casey of course. Wow, honestly there is no order of priorities there haha, that made me seem like a craptastic sister but Bean is my world.

High school and the first year or two of community college for me are also on the list of things I have been looking back on. I had some friends I pray I do not run into at Wal-Mart these days. I was not into drugs or alcohol, but some of the people I hung out with were so I had to ditch that crowd. I let some people live in my apartment that stole, and lied. I lost touch with some of my high school friends that I loved like family.

I was also part of a church in the town I live in that is not of the same faith I was raised to believe in. None the less I broadened my horizons and open-minded-ness as far as my religious views. I gained some wonderful friends, some not so wonderful. I strengthened the strongest relationship I have other than Casey. I grew in the friendships I did have. But like any other institution founded upon lies and high school drama, religious or otherwise, I did not stay for too long. After a year or two I was done with drama and lies coming from a place I was supposed to see as a sanctuary.

The summer between senior year and freshman year of college my best friend got an apartment and I was soon after her neighbor. My best friend Bethany has since blessed me with a beautiful niece Riley Elizabeth who was born two days before my 19th birthday.

That same year Casey and I were doing our own thing and taking a break. During that time I relied heavily on the people I now consider to be my closest friends. This has also leaves a heavy note on my mind because I think of the people I hung out with and the crazy things I got into back in those days. Like I said before no drugs or anything but I met all kinds of people, saw all kinds of things and became a little more independent.

Soon after Casey and I pulled our heads out of our butts and as mentioned in previous posts things are wonderful and I am in love.

The past is still weighing heavily on my mind these days. I have been thinking a lot about things I wish I could change. About things that make me feel nothing shy of joy and happiness. Most of all though I think about where I can go from here with all the "results" from the past that I have been thinking about.

So many people are like "the past is the past" and yadda yadda (sp?) but it is part of what makes us who we are. I have flaws just like everyone else, physical, mental, however you call it. I just cannot seem to get these things off my mind and hope that in the coming days my brain will calm its jets so I can sleep. In the mean time I am trying to, in little ways, to grow and learn from all of the little bits floating around.

Ta Ta ladies and gents.

Belated Resolutions ect.

Aloha readers! I have all kinds of interesting and wonderful news. Some not so awesome news as well.... Anyways......

So last week I had my head in the books. Forgive me but it is only the start of term where I am from and I am trying to adjust to how each professor grades and their expectations and such. Followed by a weekend full of work, I did not have time for much else. However there have been a few things that have been a good day dream or mental escape at the end of my long days :)

NUMERO UNO:

For a while now my boyfriend Casey and I have been planning bits and pieces of our future trip to Europe. Summer 2012 we are going to travel through Europe for a month with some of our closest friends. I come home some nights and just read the reviews on come of the backpacks we may purchase. I look at other backpacker's itineraries to see another persons take on a month away. I am sooooo excited. It is going to take dedication in all parts of my life to prepare. Like a month of trekking the European countryside is physically taxing if you are not in shape. Thus one thing I will be spending my money on is a gym membership. Casey and I are really dedicated to this for our health but Europe will be the bonus :)

Another thing is being as economical and responsible with money as possible. We have set ourselves a budget and are looking at ways to save and cut back in all aspects of our life so that Europe will become a reality.

Lastly I think being more involved and appreciative of my friends and family that share in my goal. Casey and I are so excited for one another and our friends that this is what we have in store. It is the light at the end of a tunnel of an already stressful life as a college student. Money is tight. Homework is not something that you can make up for 10 points off LOL. Anyway.... yes I am so excited and thoroughly smitten with the idea that myself and my closest loves are all sharing in a month or so in Europe.

TWO-FER FOR YA

I got a free, brand new tire tonight. Long story short I had a blow out last night. I am safe and the damage to my wallet was not fatal (kind of). It still stands though that I had a blow out and because of a wonderful police officer spot light, everyone driving within a mile of my vehicle saw the MESS that is the back seat and trunk. I am very lucky and blessed though. He stayed with me, and to my pleasant surprise my wonderful boyfriend came to sit with me while we wait for the wrecker. Another great friend saw me and offered a ride and some company. After all of this, Casey's uncle Jon came and helped the best he could too. It made me realize how lucky I am.

Tonight when my best bud Brandon and I, with help of Jon, changed my tire he told me to come to his house and air it up for free. His dad had heard about my mishap and offered me a brand new tire. It was the right size and everything so I am stoked.

All of this made me swear to take better care of myself and my car. Almost like belated resolutions for this new year along with saving money as best I can.

I will say this for myself though, I had the funds needed when my emergency hit last night. And my phone was charged. I ran some errands to the Wal-Mart and only bought necessities. Not too hard though because I hate Wal-Mart more and more every day LOL. I am doing good so far and plan on doing my best to stick to all of my newly set goals.

Ciao Bella'

Balance

I am just finishing up another week of class, work, sleep and repeat. Its the same thing as last term, only adding a few more miles on Tuesdays and Thursdays. It does however bring into question balance and what it means to people. If you would have asked me last term, my first term as a freshman in college, heck three weeks ago how balanced my life was I would have laughed in your face. Something has happened to me though in the first couple weeks that has helped to put it all into a better focus. I have always been a huge fan of planners so I think mine has helped. There is something that comes to mind that Casey said to me over Christmas break; he told me having even one class at main campus makes it feel like hard core make or break you college. I laughed it off and didn't know what in the world he was talking about. Make or break.... HA.

Still not there, but there is definitely something about that campus, or maybe the freakishly ridiculous drive home at 5. I don't know what it is, but this term is going great.

A ton of this may be attributed to my move home, away from a stressful and toxic environment. Or work is more just like a comfortable place of employment than a hell hole I get paid to visit. Who knows.

Casey is home to entertain me now though, so this blog is cut off for now. However let me a add a little bit of joy to your night/day with this.....

(upper right lmao)

My Inspirations...

So I maybe stole this idea from my pal Chelsea, but I think it is a great idea. Mine is a little different from hers though. :)

First and foremost my biggest inspiration is my family. Mucho "cliche", I know, but every family has skeletons and drama and good times and bad times. It takes so many different qualities from strength, faith, a good sense of right and wrong, just to make it through the tough times families face from time to time. When I am hitting a wall with something that has bothered me for days I just think about how my grandmother, parents, other fam all get through things that are so much tougher and I know I can make it. Right is a picture of my Grandma Diane and my Aunt Megan. They are truly amazing.

Another person that inspires me is my wonderfully awesome Casey. My boyfriend of almost 3 years. He is a huge part of my support system and pushes me to give all I've got per say. Casey also makes me laugh, on occasion until I have peed myself. Hugely embarrassing if you ask me and he did so right after we started dating. He stuck around though, laughed it off, almost sounded like he felt as though he accomplished something to make someone laugh that hard LOL. Whoa.... side tracked. Sorry. My very favorite thing is that he includes me, my opinions, and my goals in his. We both understand that college comes first, even before one another. And we are totally ok with that. He and I also see college as a stepping stone in our life together as a couple and as part of our families. ( My family loves him, so he is a keeper)

I like everyone else at one point thought I was in love and ready for a life on my own, a few years later maybe add a family.... EWWWWW

But Casey has helped me grow, he helped me see all of the great things there are to see, do and accomplish with out worrying about someone thinking you are hot shit. He is right beside me in every step I take these days and I really love having someone to share the experience with

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My friends are the people that are there for me in worst and help me through tough times, share in the best times. All of the stuff we can expect from only great friends. I am lucky enough to have some very best friends that are with us whenever the important stuff goes down. They are our witnesses, back up, audience, and sometimes our medicine. Sadly for the lack of photos on this computer, my post will not do them justice....

Well I don't think it will do my family justice either lol. Dang

Other things inspire me. I love color, and fashion, and all things that are girlie. I love putting things together. Seeing something come together or even better a final result of something I took the time to put together, build up, design is such an inspiration for me to push myself more and become more creative.

History, is another huge one for me. Not in the sense that I am cautious not to repeat it or any other silly nonsense like that, but in the way that there is always someone or something to look back to for an idea, or inspiration when we face something new, or maybe just something a little bigger than just ourselves. I love learning about things from our past. It sounds sooo nerdy, and maybe a little old0-lady-ish but I am ok with that. LOL

Make up in a small way is an inspiration. I love doing other people's make up. It lets me be creative. I can go wild, or make someone look like the classiest version of themselves. It is a blast. If I had the money and the time outside of school to invest in it I would truly love to go to school for Make Up Artistry and Design (idk if thats what its really called LOL). I do Chelsea's makeup a lot. Seeing what I can do on someone else is like seeing it on a canvas, or just a face that isn't mine LOL. Either way, hobby or not, it is so fun to me and something that pushes me to learn new things and succeed in all facets of my life. As lame as that may sound, it is all gravy with me.

There are so many things that I see or hear these days that make me stop and think. I would not call all of them inspirations, but maybe reminders that I have so much growing to do, so much more to see and do. Looking at something like facebook posts from family back home I see what I miss and it reminds me cherish any time with your loved ones that you get. School, as tough as it gets, reminds me that its a stepping stone on the way to a decent home and a family of my own after a few years of travel with Casey and our friends.

On a lighter note I was reminded that I am truly blessed that I was raised with enough sense not to push my mother around and hit her in the middle of Dicks Sporting Goods. Yes, you read correctly, some kid who was twice my size was running after his mother yelling "MOM MOM COME HERE G-D IT!!!!!" and then he pushed and hit her as she was walking out the door. I about lost it on him. But what can I do, for I am a cashier who is put on this earth to serve the customer to the best of my ability.....

My mamaw is at least a foot shorter and all of her children and the majority of her grandchildren. If one of us EVER tried to pull that crap on her we would be laid out on the floor in 7 seconds. It was horrible. I was sooo angry for her.

I am home now though, relaxing. Casey, Dusty and I played and 23 song set list on Rock Band 2. It took FOREVER and my hand hurts, but we conquered. I even played a majority of the songs on Hard level, which I have never been able to do. It was awesome. I am soooo pooped though so I think its bed time.

Ta Ta for now.